Mood:
a-okOk, so another year and some has passed without a post. Talk about wasting space! :-)
Big news! I have a daughter, Samantha Jean, now four and a half months old. Mandy is her proud mommy, and we are together and very happy. I guess dreams can come true. If you read some older posts, you'll see my dream was to be with Mandy, and now I am. And I am a very, very happy man, too. We're hoping to get our own place really soon, and that will make our dreams complete. She just graduated with an Associate's of Science in Human Services and I am very proud of her. I'm still working on my Associate's and she is starting work on her Bachelor's. I'm so lucky to be in love with my best friend, and even luckier that she's in love with me.
Peace. :-)
Mood:
happyWell, for me to get Jacob for some of his spring break and my weekend with him, I had to go to Charleston, WV to get him. Don't trust my car to make that drive, so I was worried I wouldn't be getting him. But Mandy said she could help me, so we, along with her 2 younger ones, went on a road trip today. We got Jacob and made a couple stops on the way home for some fun time, and now very much want to go back to the Wayne National Forest, especially the Lake Vesuvius area, and hope to later in the spring, when it is warmer and drier out there. Many many thanks to my best friend for all her help today, you have no idea how much I appreciate it.
We got to my house and he got his Easter Basket and started playing on the computer while I made us some lunch. Now I am about to go to work, but it's a short night. :-)
Hope all are having a good day!
Peace out...
Chris
Mood:
happyWinter Quarter grades are in, I finished pretty well, not as well as I'd like, though. My GPA is a 3.378.
Spring Quarter I want to make the Dean's list, so wish me luck...
Chris
Mood:
not sureAs I stumbled out the front door, I wondered why the last several years had to be such a waste. Numb with heartache, I walked without a destination in mind, leaving my lying cheating now-ex-girlfriend in the house to hopefully feel guilty as hell for what she had done to me.
I walked down the block, not paying attention to my route, as the past 6 years ran through my head. The good times, the not-so-good times, the openness we had once shared, the joy of raising our son together, the hard times financially and everything else. All just casually tossed out the window by her. Granted, looking back now, they were not always the best times of my life, but at that time, she was what made my world complete. I didn't think of doing anything without her in my plans. I pictured us together doing family vacations, watching together as our son grows up, greeting our grandchildren together, retiring to a one-bedroom beach house together, getting an RV and driving around the country together, and basically growing old together, happily.
Then came this shock, completely out of the blue. She'd been seeing someone else! Taking full advantage of the fact that I worked evenings and trusted her when she said she was going out with friends and to her grandma's on some weekends, taking full advantage of my complete and total trust in her, she lied to my face unflinchingly and was screwing around behind my back. Will I ever be able to fully trust anyone like that ever again? Doubtful. I never knew it was so easy to lie to me, to take advantage of my desire to believe people are generally good. I had thought she communicated with me, but I was apparently very mistaken.
What was I going to do now? The house we lived in, even though I moved in with her from the start, was hers, and only hers, on paper. Nevermind the hours I spent painting, wallpapering, redoing the bathroom, getting the yard looking half-way decent, all the little and big things I did and helped with to make it our home, nevermind all that because it was hers. So I guess I'll move out and some stranger is going to take my place, take over my house, my family. How awesome.
God, the pain, the absolute heartache. The one I loved, and thought loved me, having done this! Once again, I foolishly gave my heart to someone only to have it utterly crushed and trampled on. Thoughts ran through my head : Why am I so damn gullible? Why do I let myself fall so easily and so hard? Am I that desperate for acceptance, for love? What kind of loser am I that I don't feel complete unless I have someone special in my life? What kind of loser am I that I can't keep someone special in my life? What do I do to drive them away? What do I...
Wait... Where had I walked to? Oh man, not good. I should have gotten in my car instead of walking, though I would probably have wrecked because I obviously didn't see where I was going, and now I ended up in a bad neighborhood. Maybe if I could get out of here without being noticed...
Too late. I saw people walking towards me, and as i turned to head home, they called out to me. I must have walked into some gang's turf. I started walking faster, they broke into a run. I started to run, but tripped on some uneven pavement and went down, hard. They caught up to me and first thing I felt was a kick to my back. The pain! Soon the pain stopped, even though the kicks and cuts and punches didn't. Eventually, they stopped too, and I lay there, dying, maybe even dead already...
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I don't remember much after that. I'm sure I must have met Peter at the Pearly Gates, and must have passed judgement, for I am in heaven now. None of the angels seem to have wings, though, and none will take me to see God, no matter how much I beg and plead. They smile and say everything will be alright. I tell them I want to repent to Him directly, and they say I will get my chance. At least they finally came around to admitting this is indeed Heaven, though it took them awhile.
Strange though, I expected more than a white padded room.
Mood:
downWell, thanks to my best friend, I was reminded of my blog here. Nothing much to say, since no one reads it anyway, but I'm back at mom's, in school, and working part time. Single, though would have it otherwise, but that ain't happening anytime soon, so I'll live. Maybe one day I'll be writing about how happy I am to be with a certain someone, but that day isn't today, apparently.
Ugh, I have got to get in a better mood, work is an hour and a half away. Missing my penguin, and wish things were better with us right now. Really wish I could talk to her, that would help some, I am sure. Oh well, guess this will be the first day in awhile I don't get to see her or hear her sweet voice. This sucks. I just hope she's having a good day.
Hell, I don't have anything to say I guess.
Bye.
Mood:
lazySo I have lived up to my blog's name and wasted it. I have been working in the yard a lot, and will post before and after pics soon, either here or in my photo album. Biggest news I have for now is Cedar Fair (Cedar Point's parent company) bought Paramount Parks! I am so excited! King's Island will improve so much in the coming years.
That's all for now!
--Chris
Mood:
lazyOh boy, it's been a long while. Kids are starting school tomorrow and next Tuesday, I hope to update regularly after they're out of the house (in between getting the yard ready for winter and finishing up indoor fixes). I do want to get my photo album updated and filled more. We have lots of pictures from our King's Island trips and stuff. Speaking of King's Island, Jacob road his first coaster this summer, the Beastie! I'll have the ride photo soon.
Work is wearing me down. I am sick of cheap people, but what can ya do? I am also sick of stupid people, but there's really no hope for them at all. I am also job searching when the kids are back to school.
Heather is a non-smoker now and I am very very proud of her. She has done an awesome job with not smoking and I hope she keeps it up. I will do all I can to help her.
Speaking of Heather, we're still in love and enjoying whatever time we can get together.
I think that's it for now, I'll post more soon.
Peace out!
--Chris
Mood:
lazyA few odds and ends to catch up on here.
First, Heather is applying for a new position at work. It will be a supervisory position with better pay, but it will be second shift. If she gets it, it means no more weeknights for me at Applebee's. I can work days through the summer til about 1:30, but when school starts, I can stretch it til 4 or so. I can work Saturday and Sunday nights as well, but really only every other Saturday since I will have Mykl visiting every other weekend. Unless...
Mykl has said he mentioned to his mom he wants to move in with us. He said she told him fine, but he wouldn't be moving back and forth constantly. This could work out if she is serious because Heather's daughter Morgan has decided she wants to go live with Heather's grandmother in Charleston, West Virginia. Heather isn't too happy about it, but since Morgan claims to be so miserable here, she's going to let her do it. That frees up a room for Mykl. So if Heather gets the job and I work days, then I can be home nights with the boys to cover homework, dinner and other stuff.
An option I am considering besides working days is possibly going to school. I'd love to go to school and work on getting some kind of degree, but I am not sure in which area. I think being a pharmacist would be an OK job, but it is 6 years of school and then trying to find a good place to work. I also love writing, which would be awesome because I could do it from home, but it is a really uncertain job. There are other things I am interested in, so picking one would be a hard decision. And for the moment, it is all speculation anyway because Heather hasn't gotten the job yet.
OK, I need to go make some lunch for Jacob and myself.
Peace out!
--Chris
Mood:
spaceyWell, we did it. Mykl and I went to the midnight premier of Star Wars : Episode III : Revenge of the Sith last night. It was awesome, everything we both hoped it would be and then some. Watching the transformation of Anakin to Darth Vader was thrilling, as well as the the lightsaber duel between Obi-Wan and Anakin. It began fast-paced with a space battle and never lost steam. Now I can't wait to get Heather to go see it. I'll most likely go see it a few more times myself, as well. Mykl had fun, even though we waited in line a little over 5 hours. He didn't realize there would be people dressed up and costume contests and all kinds of other things going on, and he loved it all. Now we can't wait for the DVD.
Now I am getting ready to go to work, after driving 4 hours yesterday to get Mykl, then staying up til 3 A.M. and then getting up at 9:30 to drive 4 hours again to take Mykl home. I'm going to be tired, but that's quite fine with me.
Peace out!
--Chris
Mood:
not sureWell, I need to get on here more often and post. I am sure I have had a lot of stuff I could post about, but if I don't do it when I am thinking about it, I forget what it is.
I did get the tickets for me and Mykl to go see Star Wars on May 18th at midnight. I can't wait. It's going to be a lot of fun. I bought and read the book already. I figured I already knew what was going to happen, and this way I know a bit behind the actions of the characters.
We have been to King's Island once, on a sneak-preview weekend for season pass holders, but it was very cold and drizzly, so we didn't stay long. I am thinking of taking the boys tomorrow night, but the weather doesn't look like it's going to agree with us. It's all good, I was wanting to take Mykl to see The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy anyway.
House update : the siding and windows are finished and they look great! We also redid our upstairs bathroom, and it looks great, too. I've been busy the past couple of weeks getting things painted and blinds put back up and everything else finished inside. I want to finish it all before I start on my yard. It needs a lot of work, too.
Heather and I enjoyed a night out over the weekend. We went out with Mark and Jill and had some drinks, then went to see Meet the Fockers at the dollar theatre. There's nothing like getting drunk with the love of your life then going and laughing your ass off.
Nothing much to report on the work front, except I am now officially a Coach. In other words, I help train new servers. I have to keep an upbeat and positive attitude as well. That's easy enough to do in the dining room, but the kitchen is my venting zone. On the bright side, business seems to finally be picking back up, so the money is getting better.
OK, I think I've rambled enough for now.
Peace out.
--Chris
Countdown to Star Wars : Revenge of the Sith : 21 days
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